This week I have been suffering from idea overload and I feel like now is the perfect time to record it. When I look back in 3 to 6 months and I have started out all these chaotic thoughts, I can go back and be like, wow, what was how chaotic my mind was in June.

For me, idea overload is this weird thing where I’m doing something else and I get an idea for something, and it drives me to distraction. Not just mild distraction, NOPE! To the point, where I’m actually incapable of doing anything until I sit down and flesh out the idea that I had.

I know it may not be unique to me, but how relentless it is and it causes me to become unfocused I until I’ve seen even the shape of my new idea form is seriously impacting my productivity and it’s something that needs to be addressed.

The perfect example of this was today, while I was doing some client work, I got this idea

Phase 1: I think I wanted to create a plan for Q3 but I didn’t have a quarterly planner

So here comes Phase 2: I jotted it down on a Post-it and said I’m gonna go back to this later. Phase 3: I couldn’t do anything else my entire day was focused on trying to not focus on making the quarterly planner so I ended up wasting so much time and feeling so overwhelmed by everything.

These phases are usually what I go through, and recently, it’s been relentless and I have barely gotten anything done.

Now that may not make sense to some people.

For instance, whenever I try to explain my thought process to my sister, she looks at me like I’m crazy, and honestly, it does seem that way. She struggles whenever I am trying to sort through my thoughts and explain them to her. She does try to follow what I am saying as a lot of the time, I need to get whatever idea I come up with and try to make sense of it.

Usually, after a chat with someone who doesn’t have this zig-zag thinking I am ready to make the idea manifest or create at least a jagged outline/rough sketch o what I am thinking. This also helps to yell at my brain to shut up and that’s not always possible the fact that it’s not always possible is such a hindrance and it’s so upsetting

This is definitely something that I’m working actively to fix because I know that this isn’t healthy to have so much anxiety and harbour the stress that comes with worrying about losing the idea or not seeing it come to life.